We started homeschooling Caroline in kindergarten, when my husband's job took us to the tiny island of Curacao in the Caribbean. Math involved counting and sorting shells on the beach. Science included studies of parrot and puffer fish, dolphins and sea turtles. We read classic books under thatched umbrellas plunked into soft, warm sand. It was a homeschool fantasy come true.
When we returned to Oregon, Caroline went briefly to public school. It wasn't a nightmare, but wasn't a dream either; her math packets were covered with doodles of mermaids and fairies (no math). I had to pull her out of bed every morning kicking and screaming. After a year and a half of ho-hum learning, my husband and I knew we could do better, so we did. We plucked her from school and never looked back.
I became an avid supporter of homeschooling, and worked hard to put together curriculum that tied into travel throughout the U.S., Europe, Central America and the Caribbean. Caroline was able to explore areas of interest from scuba diving to fencing to cake decorating. She read the classics, wrote a novel, and trained a baby llama. She is interesting and articulate, confident and creative.
But the experience was not perfect. There were days when Caroline was bored. Sometimes, it brought the worst out in me as a parent and as a person. Although she was generally ahead, there were areas I had to admit I was worried about. The truth was, while I was confident about her performance in comparison to her peers, a little voice inside me said, "but how do you really know?" If she were to be plopped into a conventional classroom, would she really outperform? If she decides to go to a brick and mortar high school, or to college, will she truly be prepared?
Statistics are on my side. Homeschoolers out-test public and privately schooled peers. Colleges now recognize the validity of the method and admit homeschoolers. But homeschooling is extremely individual. Huddled under the umbrella of homeschooling, are different philosophies, approaches and values. We are a diverse population, which makes relying on statistics difficult.
So when Caroline expressed interest in a small private school close to home, we let her visit. When she said she was dying to go, we applied. When she was accepted, we took a leap. This morning, I took a picture of her on our front walkway with her backpack and school supplies. She smiled bravely and oozed with energetic anticipation. My husband drove her and she waved from the window; I went into a hollow, empty house and cried.
This blog will be about our transition to school. Both hers and mine. She'll face the challenges of middle school, complicated by an abrupt introduction to the harsh realities of a classroom, while I adjust to a new way of life, which will include finding a way to pay for private school and a new social circle.
No matter how entrenched one is in homeschooling, the truth is, all homeschooling families may find their children returning to school. It may be for economic reasons, or a change in family dynamics. It may be child driven. It might be parent driven. But whatever the reason, it is a reality, that no matter how much you believe in it and advocate for it, changing circumstances may find you on a different road than you planned.
Wish us luck.